I need advice!From anybody!?

Hey yall so really fast i have a problem....im 15 and am loving life and for a female that includes the hotties! so this one alex...is the love of my life! when i look at him he blushes and looks away and diddo here. he has an amazing personality but when he rarely talks to me he stutters or fidgets wich im sure i do too so usually he talks to me through our friends. im not looking for a eternal mate i just want to know what you think our status is...and then this other one julian.... i just met him a month ago and we are supposed to be dance partners for this huge jubilee so weve been meeting as a group with a bunch more teens every week when i first met him he blushed he smiled...like a school girl!! then last saturday at a teen dance he asked me to dance and held me close for two dances he always stares at me not in a creepy way but a way that i love! anywho last night at jubilee practice we were next to eachother but a leader pushed him to the back before i could say hi i smiled when i met his eyes and of course he smiled back but i wasnt to thrilled that i let him down..and after practice he waited for me against a wall but i kinda was scared to go over to him...so i involved myself with other friends...again i let him down when his ride was leaving and he walked out i really hope he doesnt hate me wich i doubt but still....so if you have anything to say let me have it please...and if your brave enough to tell me which one to go for TELL ME please!!!! i love them both and just fyi they are both involved in varsity sports..they are boy scouts...they are wonderfully fit...and of course any hot boy is mexican!